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Today was a test of faith. I left school today after another encounter with my Buddhist classmate and called my mom immediately. She wasn't home, so I left a message on my house phone. It went something like this:
Me: Mom or Dad, can one of you do me a favor? Can you just call me up and tell me that my faith is real? That everything I've ever been taught is truth? Can you remind me that Jesus Christ is the only way to heaven and that He is my Savior? Can you tell me there is a heaven where I'll spend eternity? Can you tell me that it's not all a joke? We're living our lives how we are for a reason. Just call me and encourage me and tell me the truth. I'm not renouncing my Christianity or anything, just call me. Thanks. Love you. Bye.
And ya know what? I know all this stuff. I know what I know. I just have these freaky times where I am like, Woah! Is this all for real? But then all it usually takes is a look outside my car window at the trees or thinking of a new-born baby, and my faith is renewed. Or a call from Mom telling me exactly what I need to hear.
It's funny because one day I want to go out and tell the whole world about Jesus and how He saved me from eternal destruction, and the next day... I am wondering if the Bible is even for real or if it's just a bunch of stories we've all been tricked into believing.
Do you guys ever struggle like this with your faith? I just want to know I'm not alone and that everybody wonders about God. It's something I've always had a problem with. I'm too much of a deep thinker and freak myself out too often. I thought about this kind of stuff when I was young. I tell you what, if I wasn't a Christian, who knows what this psycho mind would be thinking and believing. OK, well, thanks guys for reading. Hope it made sense. Let me know your thoughts on this.
Me: Mom or Dad, can one of you do me a favor? Can you just call me up and tell me that my faith is real? That everything I've ever been taught is truth? Can you remind me that Jesus Christ is the only way to heaven and that He is my Savior? Can you tell me there is a heaven where I'll spend eternity? Can you tell me that it's not all a joke? We're living our lives how we are for a reason. Just call me and encourage me and tell me the truth. I'm not renouncing my Christianity or anything, just call me. Thanks. Love you. Bye.
And ya know what? I know all this stuff. I know what I know. I just have these freaky times where I am like, Woah! Is this all for real? But then all it usually takes is a look outside my car window at the trees or thinking of a new-born baby, and my faith is renewed. Or a call from Mom telling me exactly what I need to hear.
It's funny because one day I want to go out and tell the whole world about Jesus and how He saved me from eternal destruction, and the next day... I am wondering if the Bible is even for real or if it's just a bunch of stories we've all been tricked into believing.
Do you guys ever struggle like this with your faith? I just want to know I'm not alone and that everybody wonders about God. It's something I've always had a problem with. I'm too much of a deep thinker and freak myself out too often. I thought about this kind of stuff when I was young. I tell you what, if I wasn't a Christian, who knows what this psycho mind would be thinking and believing. OK, well, thanks guys for reading. Hope it made sense. Let me know your thoughts on this.
posted by natz at 12:18 AM
6 Comments:
If you ever want to know you're not alone in a temptation remember: There has no temptation taken you, but such is common to man, but God is faithful, that He will not tempt you above that which you are able..
I used to wonder about God a lot more...I can't really think of the last time it happened. I think it's happening less and less as I mature and grow as a Christian. It's like, the more I go through and the more I experience God, the less I doubt Him. Faith comes by hearing and hearing by the Word of God. So, the more we dig into the Word, the more our faith will grow. Keep your nose in the Book! :)
Natz I understand...and I'll pray. That's all you need to know, cuz that is all I would need to know. love ya!
Yeah I understand. Sometimes I start doubting my faith and wonder "What if those other religions really are the way to go?" But it's never serious enough to actually think about leaving my faith. God doesn't take long to prove himself to me again and again.
Everyone has already said it, but I know exactly what you're going through, Nat. I deal with it a lot. Why am I here? What's my purpose? Is it really just to glorify some God I've never seen? But then I gotta think...I do see Him. Not in the physical sense, but I see the products of Him. I see the sky and the grass, I see people come to Him.
Another thing---I really don't think that God cares that we question Him. I think He wants us to, so He can prove to us that He's really there. Just a thought.
Love you Nat, and praying for you.
Thanks guys. I talked to my parents about it this weekend and my dad says I'm a very deep thinker. He's never struggled with the fact that there is a God. He's always just accepted it. Sometimes I wish I had that simple faith.
Oh well, He decides to prove Himself to me over and over again after I doubt Him. To the point that I wonder how I ever doubted. Satan definitely knows my weak spots. If you think of it this week, I'd appreciate if you'd say a prayer for me. That God would reveal Himself and give me reason not to doubt His exsistence. Thanks for the encouragement, guys. I appreciate it.
Natz, I know what you're saying...especially all those questions. As a new Christian and still in High School, I feel the same way, and I get scared. But I just pray to God that he will give me Faith in him. When I start to think of those questions, I just close me eyes and try to think of something else. But that's me, and I'm weird...so yea.:) Love you tons!
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